Saw Cyn today in London – great to see her. She took me to see Red, a play about Mark Rothko and his assistant. Liked it, although it seemed a bit dry and overly simply at times… almost condescendingly so… but that’s irrelevant – I was finally able to formulate the thought dynamic that I often have: I want to see things a certain way. When I discover that there is a deviation from what I want/expcet to see, I freeze up, judge, spaz, become paranoid, etc. depending on context. I wonder whether this way of thinking falls into being a male, a human, or if it’s juts psychological baggage.
Anyway, after some trouble with my CC card, booked a ticket to Israel – leaving on the afternoon of the 21st to arrive in the evening.
Now staying at The Generator Hostel… off to sleep.